minimums and maximums

As I was about to start prepping Mod A I was talking to a friend about my struggle street with career paths. This then lead to a discussion about my motivations etc. etc. making me realise that my struggle with my career motivations are actually quite deep and problematic.

lalalala 2 hours, many tears and a discussion with another friend later I came to the conclusion that:

I cannot change my heart - only God can do that

(the discussion was about choosing a lifestyle and living for God in that lifestyle vs. choosing a lifestyle motivated by God)

My conclusion/sort-of-solution to this is:

"Living at the minimum of pleasing God and trusting Him to change me to live at the maximum of solely living for Him"

[thank you to the two aforementioned friends for your support, prayers and rebuke - you know who you are :)]